Alice in Wonderxland

continuation to "Going back home"

2008-02-05T02:25:00Z

So i called joel and we spoke or argue and he was telling me how it was over and how he cant handle a girlfriend and that he rather be single and that were better off separate. He said he was going to pack all of my stuff and pack my tv and entertainment system, and that he wanted me out. Then after that he had said that he broke my flat screen and entertainment system and he wasnt going to pay for it and all that good stuff. I told him if he could please be home because i was going over there to pick up my stuff, and he kept saying he was leaving and that i wasnt going to be able to get in. So finally i got my mom to take me to pick up some stuff and leave. well i get there and he starts saying why im leaving, and please dont, and all this good stuff. Well i kept telling him that i was leaving. and then when i was in the bathroom he asked me to stay and what he had to do, and he asked me if he was going to have to get on his knees and i said yes and well he did . lol and he asked me to stay. Then i agreed, but i felt bad for my mom cuz she had to drive all the way over there so i left. Then i went outside to put my stuff in the trunk and he asked me why i was leaving and i told him that ill be back on friday ecause of my grandmother, and he said "wtf !! listen i swear on my sons life that when you get back on friday your shit will be packed and be outside." So i said fine and got in the car and he started calling me over and i told him those were your last words to me right? so eat them. And me and my mom drove off. Then the whole way he kept calling me screaming at the top of his lungs asking why i left, and why i would make him believe i was staying if i was just leaving and why i left. So then he calls me again at 7:22 to tell me hey guess what all those times i would disapear i was fucking jessica. Yea you stupid bitch, your a dumb fuck that moved from new jersey to florida to be cheated on. So i said ok fine and turned my phone off. Then about 40 minutes later he called again and said he only said that because he was mad and wanted to piss me off. W.E. Then after that he asked me to please come tomm. and that he really wanted me back and he wanted to work shit out with me. Then i got home and the bullshit kept on through the phone. He's always telling me something to put me down and when i tell him something in return he gets mad and says why i have to be so mean. I dont understand guys and dont think i ever will. Tomm's another day lets see what drama unfolds tomm.

Going back home

2008-02-04T18:32:10Z

Well i guess im going back home now. I call it home for a lack of a word. now back to the fights and kid screaming and throwing stuff, and joel leaving for hours at a time. No computer, no entertainment. I sit down and bead its my only way to keep sane in that house that and my ipod. I wish i could stay here with my mom, but she lives with my grandmother in a one bedroom apartment and i have no room for all of my stuff. I have about 7 boxes a table two t.v's i would have to atleast have a room of my own for all of my junk. Im dreading the fact of going back i really am. I would have neve thought i would feel this way about him or where i'm living. I wish i had a job, so i could just move out, find a roomate or something. im off to eat breakfast !! or lunch i guess i'll update when ever i can !! byebye

Hmm

2008-02-04T01:35:02Z

Today i met up with enrique the guy i met on friday and he decided to take me to the tattoo shop he works at just for today, it was kool. i was there and i started talking and met a couple of people. Then he wanted to go to the flea market and he took one of the guys with us, and well we walked around and shit and guess what? my period came and how embarissing i had to go to the bathroom and kind of make a pad out of toliet paper because there was no little tampax machine or anything. Well then i got kiind of quiet and my mind went blank for the rest of the day i have no idea why?! does that ever happen to anyone you just have no idea what to say or talk about. Well i kept quiet for most of the time and i kind of feel like everyone thought i was too quiet which im not, but that sucks idk. then after that he decided to take me home. And well here i am sitting in front of the computer once again. I think i might have blown it with the only friend i thought i had ugh !! what a day for the cat to have my tongue.

i'lll update in a few if anything intresting happens if not until manana !!

First entry

2008-02-03T01:02:54Z

Ok first off hi !

my name is marilu. This would be my first journal entry. I wish i would have started this about a month ago. Too much to type about whats been going on. But quick over view
- moved to florida from new jersey
- thought that it was going to work out between me and my first love
- moved in with him and his family, <-- thats a drama in its entirely
- looking for a job, friends, or anything to do basically

Well let me update you atleast on my week / weekend. I got into another arguement with joel (Joel <-- 1st love) pertaining to him and his baby's mom. I'll get into that another day. But i got my stuff and came to my mom's house. My mom's a very big partier and she goes clubbing every weekend lol. Well me and her have very diffrent taste in music she's into the reggeton, and hip hop, and i'm well into everything else i guess. I like alternative, some metal, some punk, but mostly alternative i guess. But regardless she finally convinced me to go with her to the club because one of her girlfriends had someone that wanted to meet me. I got there and felt very out of place i stuck to the bar, the whole time, had two drinks and prayed that i would atleast catch a buzz to try to enjoy myself. Well the guy came and i looked down and what was he wearing? Vans , i thought im saved !! and well we agreed that it wasn't really our scene and we left and he took me to South Beach to meet his cousin and some friends. I had a good time but, we had to leave because i guess evryone was tired and wasleaving already. i got home around 5. a.m and was glad that i atleast got to meet someone new.

Hopefully things will keep going like this. Because the way its been going, eghhh idk how much more i could have taken.

Hope i didnt bore anyone too much hahaha... i keep updating and posting any intresting or not intresting thing that happens from here on.

Bye ! !