So i called joel and we spoke or argue and he was telling me how it was over and how he cant handle a girlfriend and that he rather be single and that were better off separate. He said he was going to pack all of my stuff and pack my tv and entertainment system, and that he wanted me out. Then after that he had said that he broke my flat screen and entertainment system and he wasnt going to pay for it and all that good stuff. I told him if he could please be home because i was going over there to pick up my stuff, and he kept saying he was leaving and that i wasnt going to be able to get in. So finally i got my mom to take me to pick up some stuff and leave. well i get there and he starts saying why im leaving, and please dont, and all this good stuff. Well i kept telling him that i was leaving. and then when i was in the bathroom he asked me to stay and what he had to do, and he asked me if he was going to have to get on his knees and i said yes and well he did . lol and he asked me to stay. Then i agreed, but i felt bad for my mom cuz she had to drive all the way over there so i left. Then i went outside to put my stuff in the trunk and he asked me why i was leaving and i told him that ill be back on friday ecause of my grandmother, and he said "wtf !! listen i swear on my sons life that when you get back on friday your shit will be packed and be outside." So i said fine and got in the car and he started calling me over and i told him those were your last words to me right? so eat them. And me and my mom drove off. Then the whole way he kept calling me screaming at the top of his lungs asking why i left, and why i would make him believe i was staying if i was just leaving and why i left. So then he calls me again at 7:22 to tell me hey guess what all those times i would disapear i was fucking jessica. Yea you stupid bitch, your a dumb fuck that moved from new jersey to florida to be cheated on. So i said ok fine and turned my phone off. Then about 40 minutes later he called again and said he only said that because he was mad and wanted to piss me off. W.E. Then after that he asked me to please come tomm. and that he really wanted me back and he wanted to work shit out with me. Then i got home and the bullshit kept on through the phone. He's always telling me something to put me down and when i tell him something in return he gets mad and says why i have to be so mean. I dont understand guys and dont think i ever will. Tomm's another day lets see what drama unfolds tomm.
04 February 2008 @ 12:35 pm
Going back home
Well i guess im going back home now. I call it home for a lack of a word. now back to the fights and kid screaming and throwing stuff, and joel leaving for hours at a time. No computer, no entertainment. I sit down and bead its my only way to keep sane in that house that and my ipod. I wish i could stay here with my mom, but she lives with my grandmother in a one bedroom apartment and i have no room for all of my stuff. I have about 7 boxes a table two t.v's i would have to atleast have a room of my own for all of my junk. Im dreading the fact of going back i really am. I would have neve thought i would feel this way about him or where i'm living. I wish i had a job, so i could just move out, find a roomate or something. im off to eat breakfast !! or lunch i guess i'll update when ever i can !! byebye
Current Location: miami
Current Mood:
crappy
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04 February 2008 @ 08:15 pm
continuation to "Going back home"
Current Mood:
annoyed
Current Music: avenged sevenfold
